February 15, 2011
( from toothpaste for dinner.com)
Today is a good day. After being unemployed since July, I have a job! Suddenly, I feel lighter and brighter...well, emotionally lighter.
I don't at all feel physically lighter. In fact, in these past several months, my body has taken a nose dive, and I know that each day I say to myself "Tomorrow I'll start." is another pound I'll have to deal with "tomorrow."
I think being post-50 is another issue. What happened to my stamina? What happened to my drive? What happened to my discipline? What happened to my waistline? Can anyone relate?
It seems like I've spent more time trying every cheese laden comfort food recipe that I can find, than I have taking purposeful walking steps. The kitchen triangle is small, so actually, those steps I take while I'm cooking don't even count as exercise. Come to think of it, I found two pounds of Velveeta hiding in my back pockets and in my bra.
I just wonder...do I go to Weight Watchers once again, or try my hardest to just do this thing myself? I just wish someone could explain to me how it is we get to this place over and over again...the place where yoga pants go with everything and there is a permanent soft spot on my side of the sofa?
Just tell me it's not too late!